Happy birthday kakak. Mama, babah & adik love you so much. Mama doakan anak mama membesar menjadi wanita solehah y beroleh masa depan yang cemerlang di dunia dan akhirat. Wish you in the pink of health througout your life and surrounded with bundle of happiness. As long as you are happy we will be happy too sayang. A lot more mama want to say but its all seem cannot be express with words. Just remember that mama loves you so much.
Morning mail from big boss :
yadayadayada...
Without water , a ship cannot move . The ship needs water . Yet ,if the water gets into the ship, the ship will face problems and potentially sink. Similarly , we live in a time where earning is a necessity ; but let not the earning enter our hearts ; for , what was once a means of living , will become heavy chain, an entrapment and a means of destruction !!!???
yadayadayadayada....
(sebenarnya morning mail boss hari ni panjang berjela. aku summarized kan lebih kurang dia nak kata yang eraning is necessity, in the same time kita kena balance life kita juga lah kalau tak earning tu sendiri yang akan hancurkan diri kita)
Small boss always said:
yadayada...
Since nowadays majority of moms working, it is not easy to balance between career and family.So mom need to choose which one to focus more.
yadayadayada....
( small bos memang gini, dia single mingle lady lagi yet dia selalu cakap dia tau macam mana kitaorang yang mak2 ni feel. then always come and sembang ntah hape2 contohnya - it is better if you have relatives such as mom or in laws to take care of your child since nursery nowadays like this and that and blablabla... dalam hati lagi mesti aku jawab. aku tau la, ko baru nak bising2 , aku dari semenjak jadi mak dah rasa gitu yet i got no choice coz i had no relatives nearer. kalo ada mesti la aku lagi suka family aku y jaga anak aku. Aku just terpaksa go for concept tawakaltu a'lallah'. aku just tawakal and berserah kepada allah. ko mana tau tu kan?)
Me said:
I choose family first, i work just to get some earning as agreed earlier when i signed the employment letter. Do not expect me to stay late in the office just to show that i am so workaholic yet got nothing to do. I do and complete my job to reach the target, thats all. Do not ask me to be an actress too. I am just not good with acting. ( cakap dalam hati jelah)
Me plan to said when the time come *winkwink*:
Bos i nak tender dah sebab i rasa hidup i tak balance. i nak apply apa yang bos besar tulis dalam morning mail dia. i am going to search for a balance life. i dah surrender berlakon datang kerja 10 jam yet got nothing to do ( to be specific stay @ my desk konon2nye senang nak communicate if ada apa2, yet you yourself asyik hilang dekat 2 jam boleh pulak? what the use of phone lah. baling anjing? kesian anjing dia tak bersalah hokey!!!) to be more specific..( you selalu cakap ayat baik kononnya owh ira u tak cukup 30 minit takpe la, this time i consider u a mom. kira i dah tolong u la ni.tapi she herself yang single mingle selalu je datang lambat dari aku and balik awal dari aku. i monitor ada la dia balik lambat. tapi kalo y datang lambat balik awal nya 4 kali seminggu, gantinya sehari jer.so katala ko kurang 2 jam sehari, 4 hari dah 8 jam. sehari tu ko guna untuk ganti balik. boleh ke ko ganti 8 jam terus dalam sehari. 8 jam + 10 jam untuk working hour hari tu. terbaik lah ko keja 18 jam untuk hari yang terakhir tu. bedooh beno nampaknya)
Alkisahnya aku layan bermonolog selepas tengok morning mail big boss untuk department pagi ni. Kalau la aku berani cakap macam ni nanti memang terbaek lah! depress gak since masuk new department ni, ada plak kena rules 10 hours working. kalau time ada kerja aku memang tak kisah la. dah ada kerja kan nak kena siapkan, kalau tak siap terpaksa la working even 12 hours pun. yang tension mensen nya kalau nan ado kojo pastu kena la duk pura2 ngadap pc macam banyak ngat kojenya. pastu nak expect aku sibuk2kan diri pegi wat training untuk benda yang aku tak minat atas alasan takpe it is for experience. memang tak jalan la.no money no talk. no interest no walk ok. kalau dah no money no interest pulak memang wassalam la dengan aku ni skang. cukup la muda2 dolu2 jer kono tipu asyik2 kena buat itu ini y out of job scope konon2 nya untuk experience.sedangkan nak buat benda y menarik tertarik di hati pun pk 2,3 kali dulu memandangkan anak lagi memerlukan attention dari maknya ni. itu belum lagi bab pk attention untuk laki, rumah tongkang pecah lagi.memang hye2 bye2 jelah dengan nak jadi pekerja berdedikasi ni. bukan apa macam no win2 situation je. banyak win kat dia jer. Mungkin sebab dah terbiasa sebelum ni datang kerja kalau ada kerja buat sesungguh hati, kalau tak da kerja kira flexibility is there for you as long as you are contactable whenever needed. dan2 lepas tu boleh lak satu depatment ni ada narrow down rules nak applied benda2 yang sebaliknya pulak kan. haruslah aku mengungkit dalam hati 24 jam. memang la kalau diorang kata alah gomen tu ha keja fixed dari 8-5 tak bising pun. yer diorang fixed + the benefits as government servant is there. me? no flexibility + benefits yang itu2 aja. oho... mau belit ka? macam ni la kelll.... mesti ada yang cakap dah tu apsal ko tak blah lagi? hehe... sebab... benefits untuk beranak dia mantap. alhamdulillah. sebab tu lah aku nak guna part tu dulu. *winkwink*
