Stressful night

I'm stress, i wanna have a walk for calm it down but it's already late, if and only if i'm a man, surely i can do that now. HATE IT!!! Does anyone can lend me any punching bag? Arggghhh..

Then, i picked a piece of paper and started throwing out all the mess in my heart *actually i just drawn some patterns on someone scarf that i saw this evening, hehe*. After some minutes, i still can't pull it all out. I wanna cry but I wanna forbid it, coz’ it’ll just made me tired. I need to kept my energy so that I can continue my work but how I can continue my work when I’m in stress? I can’t sujud to Allah coz’ it is in forbidden moment. Keep on zikrullah , but still in moody. There were so many of syaitan in me now. My ohh my… After few other methods likes singing, and blogging then I decide to just turn on all Quranul Karim MP3’s. Here's come the medicine. God bless

All this happens due to i'm so tired, physically(all this week had just a short sleeping time and today have to attend one whole day course *of course have to because i wish to, not even single forces by others*) and mentally. Then what i wish to happen not happen after i already tune my brain to get ready and forget about those tiredness inside me besides of thinking this maybe can give some fresh air to warm up my mind to continue coding on my system when i get back later. suddenly, when i am already pull myself up to get the shower, iron and wore some special cloth, put some make up on my face and wait for the time to come to go out, then the beeping sounds heard from my phone. I can understand the problems happened here but not my heart. It is so in frustrated. There was a big conflict when our logic say yes while our heart say no. My heart felt like wanna cry, shout n turn mad for a while * try to imagine how if the poltergeist with a long hair tries to messy her messy hair, so ugly right? but note that i'm not a poltergeist okey ;) *

In conclusion, today i share some helpful ways to calm your self from stressfulness. Most importance is to turn yourself for God bless. Those methods like singing just a side method. Noted that in everything you do, think first about the effects to yourself later. Referring to the first paragraph, if i just follow my heart to have a walk on late at night, i might get hurt by those irresponsible guys out there. So, have a minute to think, have a better solution to your heart :)