SaHaBaT @ FrienDs

09 February 2010

Loneliness Syndrome?

Errr.. If you look at the title, what is the first thing that come into your mind?

Actually, this happens when i kept thinking on how my life will suddenly change 360 degrees when i am started my career later. Without family that can be called at anytime i want ( due to the differences of time ) , without him that i can ask to come over when i need him and without my cute nieces and nephews that i can be bullied ( or i am the one who being bullied actually ).

I am so afraid when i kept on thinking, later on i cannot go back to my hometown frequently or at anytime i want to. I will need to consider the cost to go back and also the schedule that might forces me to stuck there. Then, there's no him that can accompany me going out when i want to spent time. Oh My God!

Hurm.. there were so many negative thoughts inside my head. Oh no! This can't be kept anymore. I need to be strong. I need to have some goals that should be completed. So, i have decided to kept in mid that this is an this opportunity for me to learn another language ( arabic ). Besides, this is my first career, so i will fight for it. Furthermore, it also can be a vacation besides of working right?

Besides of that, there's nothing that i need to be afraid to since i am going to one of the Muslims country also. Then, after a few months, he will be accompany me there. Insyaallah..

Hope i can do the best there. Hope this opportunity can gives me chances to make my family ( wish to share it with my "big family" also.. ) have a better life in the future. Amin. Insyaallah.


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