Gone

Baru jer beberapa hari dpt gud news

semalam dah dpt bad news

smlm kt opis pas tghari

b4 g solat zuhur

tergerak nk g toilet on

rasa mcm tak comfortable tbe2

dah jinjit sume bedak n gloss nk g surau time tu

g toilet

suddenly perasan mcm ada blood

tp cair jer color blood tu

terustak sedap hati

nk bawak moto balik pun rasa takut

seb hubby leh amek

terus g klinik

that Doc suh minum bnyk2 sebab takut masa scan tak nampak

scan2 memang tak nampak

ble ckp kt Doc y ade clot with the blood

Doc pun refer terus ke hospital

pg hospital

need to go through quite painful process to check the baby is there or not

first die wt ultrasaound

tak nampak

then kuar balik ke ruang menunggu

ultrasound tu SAKIT jugak bg aku masa die masukkan ape tah

dah berkurun tggu

amek darah n urine lak

sakit!!!

then kuar menunggu lg

in the end

nama dpanggil ag

the Doc said that urine -ve

die kata memg kemungkinan besar dah tader

die plak mcm tak caye jer ngan UPT y aku wat tu

die kata mgkin slh kot

tp kalo slh

apsal body aku rasa len

masa y bleeding tu pon

tak mcm piyed biase

paha rasa mcm cramp sket

die just advice suh check ag gune UPT within 1 or 2 weeks

sbb sumtimes time implantation tu memg ade bleeding

due to baby is small so mgkin jugak takleh nampak masa scan

tp aku sgt confident y baby memg penah ade dlm perut aku

n mcm confident gak y baby is gone

sebab ade clot tu

aku taw beza antara darah beku ketika piyed and clot y warna jernih cam kantung u baby tu

yelah Doc tu senang lah ckp

die pun takde experience ag

die ckp sendirik

tp takde la pulak aku nk marah die

mungkin lau die wat muke kesian kt aku kang aku melalak on the spot lak

huhu

taperlah

aku a macho mom to be ape...

insyaallah aku kuat u terima hakikat ni

(the fact is yelah sgt tu....y melalak tu sape????)

thanks to my hubby 4 remindind me of that usefull statement

my hubby said

"ingat tak mcm cerita tu?"

that cerita is

a novel

Aa + Bb

written by Hlovate

The advice from Benz to Addin when they lost their baby

Benz said lebih kurang cmni maksudnye

"maybe kite belum boleh jadik parent y terbaik buat baby kite balik

sebab tu Allah ambik baby balik, so kite kena try jadik the best then kite dpt beri didikan terbaik buat anak kite nanti "

aku pegang statement tu

thanks to writer sebab wrote such a helpful story

to my hubby

sorry nangis2 and wat abang susah hati

thanks 4 comforting me

i apprecates that till the end of my life

love you